A Good Start After Some Shadows
Since Christmas I have written several blog posts and then turned around to simply delete them. I have been wrestling with my depression and anxiety. My postings were fairly morose and lacking of any real content. I felt without hope, without an ear to listen to me, or any willpower.
The truth of the matter is that I am surrounded by people that will send love to me. I just felt unworthy to ask or receive it. I finally broke down and just told the wife that the depression was back. She just hung out with me, she didn’t have to say anything. We just hung out. This was a huge help.
The past few days I have gone to the gym and had a family game night. Tomorrow evening for New Year’s Eve we are going to spend more time playing games. We have been playing Disney’s “Villainous” and the Dungeons and Dragons card game “Dungeon Mayhem”. Overall a very good night was had.
I feel like the New Year may be starting off on the right foot. I am definitely walking over that threshold and not clawing hand over hand.