Nugatory and Momentous
I saw a tag trending on Twitter. #MyMentalStatein5Words and I thought about how blank I feel when my depression kicks in. I know it was a bit poetic and very much pretentious, but the words paint a picture that kind of stuck with me. I posted:
Nugatory of elation or vexationhttps://twitter.com/MainMor/status/1075037404866723840
When the depression settles in, I feel blank. I don’t feel one way or the other and I just sit in that despair. When the anxiety kicks in it could be the opposite, “Momentous” perhaps. Then it is just a vortex of hot and cold air turning into a storm of nonsense. It is usually at that point when the two sides start fighting that I start to have a panic attack and I feel like a trapped animal.